Oh what a rush, well what a sight
Look at all this self-sabotage going on tonight
My blood is up and I'm far from home
With all this self-sabotage going on
I've been good for a long long time
I've been on a roll and I'm feeling fine
So I don't know what drives me on
To all this self-sabotage that's going on
I don't know why I can't get free
When I can tell good and well what's best for me
So I wonder where's the end
To all this self-sabotage I must defend
The moon comes up and the sun goes down
Watch Dr. Jekyll slowly turn into a clown
With the cloak of night for my disguise
And a trail of self-sabotage to rationalize
To rationalize!
Cappucino Rosie sky-dived in my life and said
"I think I'll pawn my crystals and love you instead"
I mouthed a quick Hail Mary through tightly closed eyes
Feeling like an unburied ostrich in a see-through disguise
Rosie dear I feel you near I feel I fear you tonight
Rosie darling watch me falling you're my calling tonight
Rosie leveled me with a force I don't know how
Like mistress of a ranch and I her sacred cow
Went straight from "Hello darling" to way the hell too far
But one fears the branding iron more than the scar
I was only searching for a lightning kiss
But I never bargained for lightning such as this
He's got him a house on the hill
And he'll play country music 'till you've had your fill
He's a fireman friend, he's an all night DJ
But he sure don't think much like the records he plays
He's a drugstore truck drivin' man
He's the head of the Ku Klux Klan
When summer comes rolling around
He'll be lucky if he's still in town
He don't like the young folks I know
'Cause I heard him one night on his video show
He's got him a medal that he won in the war
It weighs 500 pounds and it sleeps on the floor
He's been like a father to me
He's the only DJ you can hear after three
I'm an all night singer in a rock n' roll band
And why he don't like me, I don't understand
She blew it all on alcohol and a bad Missouri boy
Sweet Loretta Farmington from Cairo, Illinois
Her daddy said don't leave us girl don't throw your life away
She just smiled so young and wild and all that she would say Is
I'm going nowhere
I'm going nowhere
Singing I can't see tomorrow
But I'm leavin' here today
I'm going nowhere
But at least I know the way
After dark in a trailer park with the bad Missouri guy
Who pumped her full of jimson weed and blackened up her eyes
Morning found him sober and begging her to stay
But he knew it was over when all that she would say Is I'm going
nowhere
I'm going nowhere
Singing I can't see tomorrow
But I'm leavin' you today
I'm going nowhere
But at least I know the way
Thumbing down the highway with a brand new baby boy
Sweet Loretta Farmington from K-Mart, Illinois
Twenty-one and holding, looking thirty-five
Holding her redemption, glad to be alive
And going nowhere
Singing I can't see tomorrow
'Cause I'm holding my today
I'm going nowhere
But at least I know the way
You never saw but now you see
Now you wonder if you made a mistake getting free
It's not a crime to have some doubt
But you should have thought of this when you were getting out
So don't be so uncertain girl to thine own self be kind
Standing in the shadow of the love you left behind
So don't be so uncertain girl to thine own self be kind
You'll have to live with what you did and I will live with mine
The wreckage left the bitter taste
Divide in half the pile of a total waste
The rooster crows and you hear
But this time he's crowing out the sunset, oh my dear
Like Pilate did you wash your hands
But you know he never got those blood stains off his hands
Now all you hold is memory
I'll even give you every one of mine for free
I've waited years so patiently
I've watched your tears never drown his memory
I know you've tried to make it right
Still he's right there with us every day and night
What can I do, what can I say
If I could I would erase it all away
I saw the signs when we first met
I gave it all but I haven't beat him yet
So two plus one equals nothing
As time goes on it's getting plain to see
That two plus one equals nothing
It looks like it means nothing for me
It's not your fault and it sure ain't mine
They say these things happen almost all the time
And so I wait maybe in vain
For the time that I won't have to say
Where I stand is shaky ground
Like waiting for an avalanche to come down
While every night I lie in fear
I pray that I won't always have to hear
I've been looking for a miracle
Tell me brother, have you seen one
I'm so tired of being cynical
I want to kick my way to freedom
I remember what my Momma would say
"Son you got to give it all away
A little luck and a truckload of faith
You'll fill the hunger in your soul someday".
Oh can you tell me do you know
How to get from here to Victory Road
Is there a tunnel to the end of the rainbow
Can you help me find Victory Road
I've been looking for a sign
This exit off the Lost Highway
Half asleep and veering to the line
The radio playing Elvis "My Way"
I remember what my daddy would do
Cold steel in his eyes of blue
Not a word while carrying the weight
I only hope I haven't learned too late
Now I wonder what I'm really going to find
Cold steel or some peace of mind
A little luck and a truckload of faith
A free will or an iron gate
In the eye of sin, in the lions' roar
I can hear the slam of an iron door
You blocked the truth now I hear a higher call
Kick me down but I'll never crawl
If you ring the bell one too many times
I will arise and gather back what's mine
I'll find a way to end up standing tall
Kick me down but I'll never crawl
Kick me down but I'll never crawl
I'll be saying "sir" as you break the fall
You'll give it up as you try to take it all
Kick me down but I'll never crawl
He remembers every time
He should have been there to ease her mind
All the days and all the nights
He was chasing dreams and winning lights
Everything has a cost
Everything has a cost
Depression haunts her more than it should
But everybody tells her she's got it good
A wealthy husband a summer home
Still she blames him when she's alone
All their old friends they left behind
Live in poverty but still they shine
While they lie on sheets of satin gold
And wonder how their love grew so cold
Watch it all go down in circles
Watch it all go down in flames
Wondering if you'll have to live with all the guilt and blame
Ten thousand little habits, ten thousand memories
I'll wager that you'll never truly ever break free
To feel no love, can it be done
Looking in the mirror, still you're seeing more than one
To feel no love, can it be done
In the end, can you defend this sorrow
You shed your skin of anger
You shed your skin of pain
But deep inside your soul you know a residue remains
You try to be so callous, you try to be so hard
But it's a poker face you're wearing
As you hold the dead man's card
Upon a throne you wait alone
The memory still etched in stone
Wondering if you'll ever find a way
Everyone wants to show me a sign
Some kind of rope to grab onto
Tomorrow's troubles or yesterday's wine
A therapy group to belong to
It's a Slim-fastic, gymnastic, fantastic world
Lions and tigers oh my!
For a guy who just wants his guitar and his girl
Feels like I'm falling behind
Walking a vanishing line
Walking a vanishing line
Trainyards and farmyards, American Pie
I'd sure like a small piece today
Sirens and firings and wondering why
No one knows just what to say
In a bomb-blasted, ran-past-it, sandblasted world
The merchants of radiant sorrow
Would even discount my guitar and my girl
Feels like I'm falling behind
Walking a vanishing line
Walking a vanishing line
In a rock-smoking, air-choking, cruel-joking world
Where heroes have come hard to find
I'll stand in the night with my guitar and my girl
Wrenching my soul from these times
Walking a vanishing line
Walking a vanishing line
Spinning left and spinning right
A blasting disco every night
The lines you crossed to get to here
You're paying up without a fear
At 28 you turned away from all those prayers your momma prayed
Found a certain presence in a chemical some stranger made
But you ain't turning back, no sir, you've learned to crave the
endless blur
Where everything's unraveling away
Tomorrow's come today
Tomorrow's come today
The devil waits his pay
Tomorrow's come today
Since no one now can talk to you
A CD-ROM will have to do
Deep into the dark of night
You replay some old Ali fight
You said "Drugs and technology will never get the best of me"
Your body aches to have a break but you've another coup to make
You wanna score,
you wonder how To come out of your body now
While everything's unraveling away
You've never been to Hollywood
But you know when the stuff is good
Ex-friends now they wonder why
You seem poised to burn and die
Every cell is on an edge as you move closer to the ledge
Lights are spinning in your brain now artificially insane
In your mind you grab a thought,
"Is this all that the bargain bought"
As everything's unraveling away
Jeremy left his family
The spring of '63
Said he had to find his glory
Marching with Robert E. Lee
Marching with Robert E. Lee
He found them north of Richmond
And went to sign his name
But as he was enlisting
A lone cannonball rained
A lone cannonball rained
He never knew what hit him
They carried him away
And buried him with a thousand other men
And nothing else to say
And nothing else to say
No bugles mourned his passing
No songs were sung
But out there off in Heaven
They moved him up a rung
They moved him up a rung
Politically I'm not sure how I'll vote
And I'm not sure of some songs I wrote
But one thing that I'm sure that I'll do
I'm sticking with you, I'm sticking with you
I don't know how much of myself I can give
How good or how long we will live
But one thing I'm sure that I'll do
I'm sticking with you, I'm sticking with you
Well everything changes and everything dies
Predicting tomorrow I get terrified
But looking at you I'm so sure of myself
I'm ready and willing and blind
Now that I've given up almost every dream
I'm more satisfied with immediate things
Still I know that this will come true
I'm sticking with you, I'm sticking with you
I'm sticking with you